Light that Shines Upon Darkness
As flowers bloom and fade,
The way of life keeps recurring since ancient times.
What kind of epilogue will the interpretation of the Laurants bring about?
[Failure to conceive] - I knew of this term subconsciously
[Failure to carry] - But this one is something I learned by experience
In wake of the repeating second night-
I was told it was [recurrent miscarriage]
In wake of the merciless third night-
It was now deemed [habitual abortion]
If there were 100 women who conceived precious children
38 of them would’ve experienced a loss at least once…
How can we even begin to face this cruel reality?
Ah...just how many children of winter are in this <⛩️orizon>...
Laid to rest under the snow, having never experienced the sunlight of spring…?
If tears could melt that snow...it would transform into an ocean…
Perhaps my wishes written on the Ema were heard - my pregnancy seemed to be going well.
But on a certain beautiful st★rry night late-autumn, my child’s life came to an abrupt end…
“You’re too young for love!”
↑
No money, no responsibility
“Focus on your studies!” They said
↑
Be financially independent and stand on your own feet
But now they ask, “When are you getting married?”
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Pressuring you to act before it’s ‘too late’
“When are you expecting?”
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Pressuring you to do something about the aging population
<These questions assault many women, my wife included>
[Bombarding them with questions]
Who decided that giving birth to a healthy child
Is <what gives her life worth>?
I underwent <screening after screening after screening>
To find the cause of my miscarriage
Unseen risk factors
<Failure to carry is fiction junctioned with reality>
<More than half of patients who underwent screenings>
Could not determine the root cause
But still-
We won’t give up on [living] or [creating a future]
So at the very least…
Let me listen to a <story>[song] that can soothe this pain
I have overcome countless
Nights of [sadness] and nights of [jealousy]
So please…
Give me an <ending> that can shine upon this darkness…
But…despite all that…
Despite everything…
Despite everything...
My final wish ended in vain…
Alone in dusk, I climb the slope....
A shimmering light…
Curse be upon the gods!
“Gone with this world!”